RE: POKE entry (Wed, Jan 16, 2008 . 5:01 PM)

AFTER this passage in ORANGE is the post I got from POKE's blog entry (which is in white) …so what is happiness what is being successful here's some thought for it (in orange)J ?

To me, success can be of many different things…this in
because; in life there are many stages, and every
stage of my life I would be expose to different
environment and people therefore having vast impact on
my point of perception and experience I have so far.
From other module, I discover that in our life we are
continuously being influence by various factors so
within these few many would indeed make a huge impact.
For example during the stage of primary school much of
my life influence would be from my family... hence
from them to be successful, seemed to required great
span of studying, to have white collar job... Have
high pay this seemed to be what I meant to be
successful


But the perception of what is success changes when I
reach secondary school and realise that to be
successful one need not require to attain high paid
occupation etc, rather as long as one as goals in life
and one strive to accomplish these goals than this
person can also be said to be a successful person in
life as he had attained.


Until now…my definition of success would be deeply
related to fulfilment… as mention in the Maslow
hierarchy of need... different people would has
different need and since each of us has short life
span and we spend most of them studying and working…
so why not spend everyday in happiness and this
happiness would come from the fulfilment one gets. Is
it making other have a nice day? Cheering up the
people around us…doing a good deed etc. Similarly to
doing an experiment/research… even though we may not
get the desire outcome...But the process that allows
us to have something to take away can be seen to be a
form of success too.


No matter how small an action is, as long as there is
no regret and fulfilment and satisfaction are attain
in a good way... Then I would consider theses as being
a Success

- No one can determine how successful in your life... exam is to gauge your standard at that point of time of exam; happiness is what we found, thru the walk of life

 

"What is the use of me , studying so freaking hard for that exam and in the end did so lousy for it?
Tell me... whats the point ?
Whats the point of me studying so hard and it the end whatever that i studied did not came out?

Maybe Ms Theresa Koh is right.
You can study 200 days for a exam paper but in the end it goes down to luck.
The luck if what you had studied so hard for came out.

FUCK MAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
This is the 1st time since N levels i did a piece of paper SO BADLY that even when i am doing it i feel so much like crying.
Whatever that i studied did not come out and fuckkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk...

It is just a 20% paper.
Thankful its just 20%.
Because failing this test wont fail me,
I have done good enough for the rest of the 80% and i believe i will still at least get a minimum grade ' B ' for this module.

BUT TO ME PASS IS A1!!!!!!!!!!!
yeah i am damn ambitious especially when it comes to studies.

But on my way back from home..
I was still thinking...
WTF should i do if i have studied so hard for 1 paper and in the end still did so badly for it?

I though seniors always like to tell me as long as i got study will pass?
WTF?
Or am i TOTALLY SUAY today.
TOTALLY.

Let this paper be a reminder for me.
Just let it be.
Lets not get pessimistic.

I am already wondering what kind of life i will be having when i grow up.
Will there be a twist of fate for me?
Will i be able to excel in life?

Life is so cruel that we don't know what the future holds for us the moment we made a decision. We will not be able to know if that decision is correct or wrong and by the time we know , its either you are up there close to the elites or you are down there close to people with financial difficulties.

I am so obsessed with a comfortable life in the future that i believe as long as i just give my best now in studies , i will be able to live a good life in future with good income .
I used to think that this is a perfect life.

Live at a big house.
Go home wife serve dinner .
Bring kids to chatlet teach them how to swim and cycle.
Watch my kids grow.
Grow old with my wife.
Life is so perfect when you have a comfortable income.

All the while this has been my targetted way of life .What i want when i grow up.

Until an auntie told me.. " ah ya eat maggie mee also 1 meal . eat abalone also 1 meal."

This sentence from her really set me to many thoughts..
Then jeff told me..

"How you see your life is how you define happiness"
Its really damn true..

Is it to live with luis vuitoon , gucci , latest phone and cars ? Or to live with just gionardo , baleno , nokia 3210 and cherry qq?

Or i know is..
I want a meaningful life.
I want a comfortable life and i want to earn it with all the hard work that i shall pay from the past to the day i retire.
I want to have kids and see their joys when they are having fun. "